Toronto Trim's Hotel Cum Drop-in Centre

[LessinSF]

Originally posted by sebastian_dangerfield
Haven't you ever needed "the bigger high"? I switch jobs, I switch drinks, cars, houses, hobbies, you name it... Objectively, I am rather happy, and were you to meet me, you'd likely think I had a pretty good gig.

But its never going to be enough. As soon as I get one thing, I need another, and it just doesn't stop. I think I put my finger on it years ago. People aren't wired for routine. I cannot do/be/consume any of one thing for two long without becoming utterly disinterested in it... and it happens fast... Imagine high speed ADD coupled with aninsatiable appetitie to constantly be entertained. It helps in this career because I enjoy learning shit, but for all other aspects of my life, I really want this afflication gone. I watch my neighbor mow his lawn and wave to his wife as she leaves for work and think "Fuck, why is he so happy? That's so boring?" Yet I realize its impossible to live in a casino of constant new pleasures my entire life. There is no job that allows one to just travel the world soaking up as much shit as you can and trying a gazillion things until you die. And thats exactly what I want to do. My "college prism" isn't pining for college so much as pining for some revelatory in the same way college was revelatory, something to grab me by the balls and interest me every day. Something stimulating.

I guess its pretty naive and arrogant to think I should be perpetually entertained and interested in whatever i'm doing, but hey... thets the wiring I have upstairs, and I haven't been able to fix it for over three decades, so I'm fairly sure its permanent. What can I say...

You nailed me, and my current ennui and angst. I've been in my current "gig" for about seven years and am bored with the field of law, the people I work with, and the people I work for. I am even bored of San Francisco, to a certain extent, but I know that I would grow bored with anything else I did after awhile, whether travel, writing, golf, or just kicking around ingesting substances, trying to get laid, sleeping and otherwise being a degenerate layabout.

My brain is too big and it is not satisfied with reruns. I could constantly do new things, but I went into the wrong field of law and have not yet enough accumulated to enable me to live in the lifestyle I would want. Thus, I am stuck here for awhile, salting away my bonuses, investing on the Plated plan, building the 401(k), hoping my place continues to appreciate, and that my parents don't blow my retirement money, while bemoaning the years I am losing when my body is in relatively good health and relatively still attractive. I need to win the lottery.

[sebastian_dangerfield]

Originally posted by paigowprincess
I don't think plowing through this


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to get to this

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seems real appealing.

(IRonweed, are you a gay again?)

I am sick of the Brazilian and the shave. I have decided that the styles that are in for 2005 are the full growth with conservative side trimming (we'll call that the "hedge") and the short, close cropped look (agin with conservative side trimming). Its not really about the length/height, so much as making sure the thing isn't growing too far radially.

The Hitler, wisp of hair above goods and thin runway are out.

[robustpuppy]

Originally posted by paigowprincess
Uh, didn't Nate Fisher give this same speech to Tom Wheeler on Monday night?

Spoiler space, please. My cable was out.

[bold_n_brazen]

Originally posted by robustpuppy
Spoiler space, please. My cable was out.

I'm with you. I haven't watched yet.

Originally posted by sebastian_dangerfield
Damn, you just clobbered me, and I have no return.

Haven't you ever needed "the bigger high"? I switch jobs, I switch drinks, cars, houses, hobbies, you name it... Objectively, I am rather happy, and were you to meet me, you'd likely think I had a pretty good gig.

But its never going to be enough. As soon as I get one thing, I need another, and it just doesn't stop. I think I put my finger on it years ago. People aren't wired for routine. I cannot do/be/consume any of one thing for two long without becoming utterly disinterested in it... and it happens fast... Imagine high speed ADD coupled with aninsatiable appetitie to constantly be entertained. It helps in this career because I enjoy learning shit, but for all other aspects of my life, I really want this afflication gone. I watch my neighbor mow his lawn and wave to his wife as she leaves for work and think "Fuck, why is he so happy? That's so boring?" Yet I realize its impossible to live in a casino of constant new pleasures my entire life. There is no job that allows one to just travel the world soaking up as much shit as you can and trying a gazillion things until you die. And thats exactly what I want to do. My "college prism" isn't pining for college so much as pining for some revelatory in the same way college was revelatory, something to grab me by the balls and interest me every day. Something stimulating.

I guess its pretty naive and arrogant to think I should be perpetually entertained and interested in whatever i'm doing, but hey... thets the wiring I have upstairs, and I haven't been able to fix it for over three decades, so I'm fairly sure its permanent. What can I say...

I don't understand how this state of things jibes with a happy marriage.

[str8outavannuys]

Originally posted by bold_n_brazen
There was a time when I would have taken the bourbon and blow over oral sex, any day. This is no longer that time.

Who died and turned you into a black woman?

[bold_n_brazen]

Originally posted by str8outavannuys
Who died and turned you into a black woman?

Whatchoo talking about, white boy?

[sebastian_dangerfield]

Originally posted by LessinSF
You nailed me, and my current ennui and angst. I've been in my current "gig" for about seven years and am bored with the field of law, the people I work with, and the people I work for. I am even bored of San Francisco, to a certain extent, but I know that I would grow bored with anything else I did after awhile, whether travel, writing, golf, or just kicking around ingesting substances, trying to get laid, sleeping and otherwise being a degenerate layabout.

My brain is too big and it is not satisfied with reruns. I could constantly do new things, but I went into the wrong field of law and have not yet enough accumulated to enable me to live in the lifestyle I would want. Thus, I am stuck here for awhile, salting away my bonuses, investing on the Plated plan, building the 401(k), hoping my place continues to appreciate, and that my parents don't blow my retirement money, while bemoaning the years I am losing when my body is in relatively good health and relatively still attractive. I need to win the lottery.

Brother, spend the money and damn the naysayers to fucking hell. You could die tomorrow. I blow money like a jackass because Why The Hell Not? What are you going to do with it? Save the shit and die with it? Fuck that. I haven't worried about it yet and probably never will, not because I have a lot, but because frankly, it ain't what drives me. People like you and I will probably never have piles of money because you can only fake your way up the ladder so far. The Real Prize Money is only given to the douchebags who actually like the game. Which is sad, because they don't really enjoy it. I just want more dough to feed the machine, the 24 hour a consumption machine in my head which searches endlessly for little escapes from the drudgery of this mentally squalid toil.

Spend. Spend it like there's no tomorrow, and if you run out and can't find a new outlet for that green fuel, screw the govt for every nickle of support you can get. Logically, there's no reason to do anything else. like Frank Zappa said, "Legacies are for people who give a shit." None of it matters in 100 years.

I will die leaving the govt with a burial bill. I'd never have it any other way.

[ltl/fb]

Originally posted by sebastian_dangerfield
I am sick of the Brazilian and the shave. I have decided that the styles that are in for 2005 are the full growth with conservative side trimming (we'll call that the "hedge") and the short, close cropped look (agin with conservative side trimming). Its not really about the length/height, so much as making sure the thing isn't growing too far radially.

The Hitler, wisp of hair above goods and thin runway are out.

Holy shit, I am au courant with sebby.

And paigow, I will stop now. I apologize for freaking you out. Consider me re-disco-mitted and not getting any.

[sebastian_dangerfield]

Originally posted by paigowprincess
I don't understand how this state of things jibes with a happy marriage.

My wife's really cute.

[str8outavannuys]

Originally posted by robustpuppy
Today's entry from gofugyourself:



Is the kid Dakota Fanning? Whoever she is, the poor thing has wretched teeth.

Of course it is, and she has braces on. We all had our awkward periods. Be nice to the 11 year old.

[robustpuppy]

Originally posted by str8outavannuys
Of course it is, and she has braces on. We all had our awkward periods. Be nice to the 11 year old.

Well, I couldn't tell they were braces, but still, please. I can't stand child stars of her ilk. They're so calculatedly cute and precocious. And no offense to anyone who has named his or her child after a state, but I know more Golden Retrievers named Dakota than I can throw a stick to.

ETA that at 11, she is far, far, too old to be held like that by a wackjob like Cruise.

[LessinSF]

Originally posted by sebastian_dangerfield
Brother, spend the money and damn the naysayers to fucking hell. You could die tomorrow. I blow money like a jackass because Why The Hell Not? What are you going to do with it? Save the shit and die with it? Fuck that. I haven't worried about it yet and probably never will, not because I have a lot, but because frankly, it ain't what drives me. People like you and I will probably never have piles of money because you can only fake your way up the ladder so far. The Real Prize Money is only given to the douchebags who actually like the game. Which is sad, because they don't really enjoy it. I just want more dough to feed the machine, the 24 hour a consumption machine in my head which searches endlessly for little escapes from the drudgery of this mentally squalid toil.

Spend. Spend it like there's no tomorrow, and if you run out and can't find a new outlet for that green fuel, screw the govt for every nickle of support you can get. Logically, there's no reason to do anything else. like Frank Zappa said, "Legacies are for people who give a shit." None of it matters in 100 years.

I will die leaving the govt with a burial bill. I'd never have it any other way.

It's not spending it that's the issue - it is accumulating enough that I can quit and live off the income and not have to come crawling back to this profession in ten years.

But, seriously, I am this close. I am seriously considering quitting after my bonus this year, selling my place and renting something cheaper, and living off the nut. And, even if I do slowly dig into the principal - I will enjoy the next few/several years. Like you say - better to spend it now, and then return to work when I am a decrepit mess, and can't do the things I would do now. I could keel over tomorrow, given my lifestyle, and I would hate to leave it unspent.

[bold_n_brazen]

Either a pint of sweet and sour chicken or a white pizza. I need some blow and bourbon to take the edge off.

[str8outavannuys]

Originally posted by bold_n_brazen
I'm with you. I haven't watched yet.

If I do an overrated list, 6 Feet Under is going to the very top.

By the way, Terry Puhl was underrated. So was Gene Larkin.